God is AMAZING!

Ya know...God is AMAZING! I am so amazed at how amazing God is! I have recently been going through some really, REALLY hard times. God blessed us with the wonderful news that we were expecting our 8th baby, but then I lost the baby a few weeks ago. I was so confused and I began to question why God would take my baby. After all, he is the one who placed the desire for children in my heart. I spent hours crying and questioning God and feeling so lost and separated from him.


Well...then just yesterday, after weeks of uncertainty and doubts, on my birthday...a very special song came on the radio. Can you guess? Blessings, by Laura Story. The very song my beautiful daughter sang in church. I was in the car driving by myself and just started crying. The song touched my heart and answered all my questions. It was like hearing the song for the first time. I had never heard it or understood it like I do now...now that I have lost something so very dear to my heart. I realized without a doubt that everything that happens is in God's hands. After I lost the baby, I knew that in my head, but not in my heart. I instantly began thanking the Lord for the blessings that he has given me. I realized I was looking at things the opposite of how I should...with bitterness for what was missing instead of gratefulness for what was existing! 


Then, it happened again! I changed radio stations and the song came on again not ten minutes later. I realized God was trying to tell me something. It was then it hit me like a ton of bricks! NOTHING is an accident. God planned all along for Emily to learn and sing that song in July because he knew what I'd be going through now. That very weekend would have been the very weekend that our baby would have been conceived. I hadn't heard the song since the miscarriage and then, on my birthday to have it played on the radio two times just was such a confirmation of God's sovereignty to me. He knows EVERY detail of our lives to the very moment and it was not a coincidence. I do not know why I lost the baby, but I know I am so thankful that my life is in God's hands and that I can trust him for everything. Wow! What a blessing!

Wow! I can't believe it's been almost 4 months since I last posted...I guess I've been busy! A lot has happened since July, but most important is what is happening this weekend! I get the privilege of attending the Above Rubies Retreat in Zephyr Cove! I'm so thankful that I am able to go and with my new friend too! I can't wait to hear what Nancy has to say to us ladies! If you want to find out more about the Above Rubies ministry go here: Above Rubies